| i have two things to dwell on today so just stay with me......
thought one: christmas.. sometimes the holidays really just confuse me, they are ment to remmenise on past memories and enjoy being together with friends and family, but when is the last tiem everyone just did that... sat down and enjoyed the time they had, not worring about gifts, money, or food and all the struggles that comes with the holidays... i've learned a lot this season. some good some bad, it all pretty much started the other day whenever mike and me where in cd warehouse and these kids well they were older than me but they werent all there if you understand what i am saying and well he really wanted this game, it was a two for one deal and his other brother and father were with him and the other brother wanted it to because apparetnly it was perfect for both of them, well you could call me a bad person for listening in but well i guess i am just that way, they asked the dad if they could get the game but by the look in his face i could tell that it was something more than words could say, it was sort of a pain to him but frustration over took him too, he turned his sons down wispered something and the son seemed to understand in a sad way, so i looked at the kid and looked down at the cd i was getting.. see i God has blessed me with the ability to get things that i need and want, but he kept tugging at my heart, well this guy, he was scary looking no joke, but it was like a teddy bear effect, big but soft on the inside so i looked at him looked at the game and asked how much it cost he showed me the price disapointed but still honest, his older brother was looking painfully from afar.. so i handed him the money for it, it was not a lot and i coudl see no better cause for this he refused to take it at first but then i told him it was christmas and concider it a gift, so then he did asked me if i knew him and i said no he thanked me, then stood in aww he started walking over to his dad , but i left mike in there to finish shopping, mike told me later that he had never seen such a smile on both faces, now any one would have done that, so dotn that i am bostign because i am not at all i simply told you that story to give an examople of how amazing the littlest things are, i coudl not have bought anything that would give me that pleasure. with all the mess with shopping can be a downer too, but tonight i went and got my dad a final gift and the guy who cheked me out was sooo sweet like a grandpa to me, and he was the first guy to treat me with the holiday spirit in the selling world, now honestly i dont blame them, it would be hard to be in a cheery mood with all the pestimistic stuff going around, but there a light in the world at the corner of town east at radio shack.... it really is little moments like that that makes our lives so precious. i've also been spending a lot of tiem around my grandparents ( granny and pa) and they also have opened my eyes, sadly my great aunt died the day before yesterday, but i didnt knwo her that welll last tiem i saw her i was in diapers, but the sadness in my grannys eyes will never leave my soul, but it was more of a i wish i would have called her and actually talked to her sadnesss then sadness of death, i tend to see that more the odler the eyes i look into, because they knwo that they will see them again in Heaven. my granny has showed me sooo much these last few weeks, about not worrying becaust its all in Gods control... adn even thought everythign may not always go the way we wnat to worryign gets us no where adn if we jsut say oh lord come on down sometihngs lost and cant be found when we lose are keys that helps too.. ok well back on the christmas subject, we need to get back to our roots and take the christmas part of christmas and erase what society has done to it ( sorry thats not really deep but whatever works)
subject 2: SINGLENESS IS A GIFT FROM GOD!! ok yeah you probably think wow she has really lost it now, but seriously, if we would stop spending our time thinking of the other sex, and spend it on family, friends, God most importantly, school, and our hobbies we would recieve the gift he has for us! honestly, i do not think that i will go out with anyone agian until i am ready for marrage... crazy maybe but give me a chance, this is the time that we ahve to celebrate life, find ourselves, use our selves for what God wants, now i am nto sayign tat if yo uare in a relationship shame on you, no no , i am just saying that being single is NOT a bad thing it is a GOOD thign, i do nto have to wrry about spending all my time worryign, fightign, and all the good thnfs that come too, but i would rather just leave the dating drama behind or in other words " kiss dating goodbye".... i did not think of this on my own, its a book that everyoen should read, single or not it really puts life into perspective, i gave a copy of this book to one of my really good friends, also an ex, now you are thinkging i am insane, but really i am not, its just another way to look at life, and i am loving it and could not be happier with it! well i hope ya'll all get somethign out of this good or bad, love ya'll and merry christmas, and please keep the mcdonalds girl in your prayers explain later, or jsut go up to the mcdolnalds off of town east and you'll understand, they have flyers everywhere!
ps... matt, i am sorry for being the bomb that damaged the maffia, lol love ya kid it was great to see you again, i miss my big bro!
CYNDI FINLEY |
